I
am fascinated by seats of any kind including parapet walls and steps on
which you can sit and watch the world age and regenerate.
It’s
the same with roads, especially byroads, un-tarred and uneven including
tank-bunds. They make me think of absences, people who have been there,
have walked, conversed, reminisced, planned, were distraught or elated.
They make me wonder about who would come later and whether their
thoughts would be, in essence, similar to that which has crossed other
minds in another time.
Benches are special though. They can’t
hold many people. Two, best. Three’s a crowd for the architecture makes
conversation awkward. Two, best. Especially if for those seated the
world is made of and made for love.
It is not always a happy
place of course, for the course of love is seldom smooth. Love is a
poem, after all, that is inked with a smile and a tear. Benches know of
such things, I am sure. They may not know the names of those who sat,
spoke and were silent, but they know the language of words, of love and
the more eloquent tongue, silence.
Just the other day I got to
know about a singular bench. Singular because it refers to a particular
love story; singular also because Ruwan Bandujeewa wrote about it. And
singular because it held some tears which, along with the bench, were
invisible to all and, in fact, is no longer there.
This is not
the first poem that Bandujeewa has written about love and the pain of
love using the ‘lake’ as witness and ally, but this, written a few years
ago I believe, is sad beyond description.
.
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ŕ¶ුŕ¶±ී ŕ¶šŕ·… ŕ¶šŕ¶łුŕ·…ŕ¶š් ŕ¶Żෙŕ¶šŕ¶š් ඇŕ¶
ŕ¶±ුවරු මේ ŕ¶¶ැŕ·€් ŕ¶Żŕ¶±්ŕ¶±ෙනම් ŕ¶±ැŕ¶
ŕ¶‘ŕ¶ැŕ¶± ŕ¶Żැŕ¶±් ŕ¶’ ŕ¶¶ංŕ¶šුŕ·€ŕ¶් ŕ¶±ැŕ¶.
It is not easy to translate:
Upon a bench by the Kandy Lake
a tear or two thinned out reside
citizens know not of these, indeed
even the bench is no longer there.Bandujeewa plays with the ‘
nuwara’ of Nuwara Wewa (Kandy Lake). '
Nuwara'
is also 'city,' and ‘nuwaru’ refers to citizens but could also be ‘The
people of Kandy.’ I can’t capture the rhyme in translation. Someone
else, I hope, will. But all that is incidental.
Benches are
nondescript things. We see them but do not wonder about who may have sat
there, what kind of conversations they had. Not everyone leaves a tear
behind and not all tears that are in fact the residue of love get etched
into the wood or cement of the benches upon which love was declared or
withdrawn. Benches go unnoticed and benches, noticed and unnoticed are
sometimes removed. Where are they taken? Are they turned into firewood?
At what point does the signature of tears become unreadable?
Years
ago, a well-meaning friend decided that I had lost my mind. He said,
‘You are going zig-zag on the 138 bus route!’ Those who know the route,
i.e. from Pettah to Maharagama and sometimes Kottawa or Homagama or
else, turning at Kottawa towards Mattegoda or Rukmalgama, would
understand. There’s a lot of traffic and many irresponsible drivers.
He insisted that I would get knocked down.
‘There are no buses on this route,’ I laughed.
He laughed too.
And then I said, ‘there’s no such road either!’
And we couldn’t stop laughing for a long time.
There
are benches and roads that are sat upon and along which people walk,
respectively; lovers included. They own those benches. They own those
roads. The bench and the road do not become less private although others
use them. Like the sky, as my father once said.
But who erases
them from the landscape? Why? And where are they thereafter stored?
Memories are for lovers or rather those who loved but were not loved in
return or else were loved in return but only for a while.
People
don’t see. They don’t have to. Sometimes people will not suffer love
and lovers. They are written out of narratives, along with bench, road
and tear. And lovers, those who had words and spoke them softly and
thereby enabled them to write upon the walls of hearts, are not only
banished but are gagged as well. And yet it is possible to argue that
the greatest tyranny is that of the beloved who will not love or claims
heart-ink has indeed dried out. When it comes to that point, poetry gets
written on benches with tears and benches themselves are spirited away.
There was a time when they came easy
but words came slow and slower still
not because hearts ran out of love-ink
but unnamed tyrannies shut the valves,
and yet, in impoverished times
heartbeat is word enough
and memory a notebook that will not burn.The
worlds we inhabit are so easily erased. Poetry lingers, even long after
the beloved has evicted poet from the heart, tears have dried and
benches that transcribed the most magical and tragic love stories are
turned into firewood and ash. Thus are the seeds of love scattered
across the earth.
And yet...
We write even when we don’t
and read splendid stories
on pages decreed to remain blank.
On benches too. Even if they no longer exist.
['The
Morning Inspection' is the title of a column I wrote for the Daily News
from 2009 to 2011, one article a day, Monday through Saturday. This is the 285th article in the new series that began in December 2022. Links to previous articles are given below]
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Other articles in this series:
Reflections on things left unfinished
The virtues of an empty canvas
Rukshan does not age
Autumn days and nights thirteen centuries apart
Texts are ancient, transcription error-ridden
The naked truth
The poetry of resistance
Dung-lies and flower-truths
The word as a sword held to the throat of truth
Residents of and residency in heart and mind
Merit, integrity and seniority in the superior courts
Hunters and 'victims' of immemorial light
The unbearable lightness of pause
Magic carpet to Dutuwewa
Gauze, blood-stained and torn
Seasons bookeneded by leaves on park benches
Writers' blocs and dead lines
Stop Press!
The world shall not be emptied of poetry
Reclaiming the everyday with solidarities of tender fury
An Aussie broke a SLan heart in Ind for Afg
Writing magical pieces about something beautiful when time permits
The scattered archives of art and protest
Friendship that keep friends permanently at 16
Amherst: silent, rural, poetic and serendipitous
The virtues of unemployability
A breathless hush at the close
Ahmed Issa, fearless and audacious in Gaza
Let us take a deep breath now...
How Grolier Poetry writes 'Harvard Square'
Let us write beautiful poetry
Following children and their smiles
Let's plant words in cracks and craters
Re-weaving lives and love
When the earth closes upon us...
Let us now march to the battleground of words
The most pernicious human shield
Who bombed Frankfurter Buchmesse
The truly besieged
Love's austere and lonely offices
The mysteriously enjoined in the middle of nowhere
Serendipity now!
Reflections on the unimaginable
Jackson Anthony is a book and will be read
A village called Narberth Bookshop
Gateway drugs to A-B-C
'Irvin' and other one-word poems
Earth pieces Kerala and Sri Lanka
Obligation as bomb and ocean
In the land of insomnial poets
In and out of shadows
Over to Eve
When you don't need an invitation, it's home
When the Canadian House of Commons applauded a Nazi...
Touching the touch-me-nots
The importance of not skipping steps
No free passes to the Land of Integrity
Hector Kobbekaduwa is not a building, statue, street or stamp
Rajagala and the Parable of the Panner
Let's show love to Starbucks employees!
You've got mail?
Octavio Paz and Arthur C Clarke in the stratosphere
Enduring solidarities
Coco 'Quotes' Gauff!
9/11 and the calm metal instrument of Salvador Allende's voice
What a memory-keeper foregoes
Whitman, Neruda and things that wait in all things
Thilina Kaluthotage's eyes keep watch
Those made of love will fly
Profit: the peragamankaru of major wars
Helplessness and innocence
The parameters of entirety
In loving memory of Carrie Lee (1956-2020)
Mobsters on and off the screen
Transfixing and freeing dawns
We're here because we're here because we're here
Life signatures
Sha'Carri Richardson versus and with Sha'Carri Richardson
A canvas for a mind-brush
Sybil Wettasinghe's shoes
Love is...
A stroll with Pragg and Arjun along a boulevard in Baku
Meditation on tree-art
Daya Sahabandu ran out of partners but must have smiled to the end
Gentle intrusions
Sleeping well
The unleashing of inspiration
Write, for Pete's sake
Autumn Leaves Safeness
Sapan and voices that erase borders
Problem elephants and problem humans
Songs from the vaekanda
The 'inhuman' elephant in a human zoo
Ivan Art: Ivanthi Fernando's efforts to align meaning
Arwa Turra, heart-stitcher
Let's help Jagana Krishnakumar rebuild our ancestral home
True national anthems
Do you have a friend in Pennsylvania (or anywhere?)
A gateway to illumination in West Virginia
Through strange fissures into magical orchards
There's sea glass love few will see
Re-residencing Lakdasa Wikkramasinha
Poisoning poets and shredding books of verse
The responsible will not be broken
Home worlds
Ownership and tenuriality of the Wissahickon
Did you notice the 'tiny, tiny wayside flowers'?
Gifts, gifting and their rubbishing
History is new(s)
Journalism inadvertently learned
Reflections on the young poetic heart
Wordaholic, trynasty and other portmanteaus
The 'Loku Aiya' of all 'Paththara Mallis'
Subverting the indecency of the mind
Character theft and the perennial question 'who am I?'
Innocence
A degree in people
Faces dripping with time
Saji Coomaraswamy and rewards that matter
Revolutionary unburdening
Seeing, unseeing and seeing again
Alex Carey and the (small) matter of legacy
The Edelweiss of Mirissa
The insomnial dreams of Kapila Kumara Kalinga
The clothes we wear and the clothes that wear us (down)
Every mountain, every rock, is sacred
Manufacturing passivity and obedience
Precept and practice
Sanjeew Lonliyes: rawness unplugged, unlimited
In praise of courage, determination and insanity
The relative values of life and death
Feet that walk
Sarinda's eyes
Poetry and poets will not be buried
Sunny Dayananda
Reunion Peradeniya (1980-1990)
What makes Oxygen breathable?
Sorrowing and delighting the world
The greatest fallacy
Encounters with Liyanage Amarakeerthi
Beyond praise and blame
Letters that cut and heal the heart
Vanished and vanishing trails
Blue-blueness
A forgotten dawn song from Embilipitiya
The soft rain of neighbourliness
The Gold Medals of being
Jaya Sri Ratna Sri
All those we've loved before
Reflections on waves and markings
A chorus of National Anthems
Saying what and how
'Say when'
Respond to insults in line with the Akkosa Sutra
The loves of our lives
The right time, the right person
The silent equivalent of a thousand words
Crazy cousins are besties for life
Unities, free and endearing
Free verse and the return key
"Sorry, Earth!"
The lost lyrics of Premakeerthi de Alwis
The revolution is the song
Consolation prizes in competitions no one ever wins
The day I won a Pulitzer
Ko?
Ella Deloria's silences
Blackness, whiteness and black-whiteness
Inscriptions: stubborn and erasable
Thursday!
Deveni: a priceless one-word koan
Enlightening geometries
Let's meet at 'The Commons'
It all begins with a dot
Recovering run-on lines and lost punctuation
'Wetness' is not the preserve of the Dry Zone
On sweeping close to one's feet
Kumkum Fernando installs Sri Lanka in Coachella, California
To be an island like the Roberts...
Debts that can never be repaid in full
An island which no flood can overwhelm
Who really wrote 'Mother'?
A melody faint and yet not beyond hearing
Heart dances that cannot be choreographed
Remembering to forget and forgetting to remember
On loving, always
Authors are assassinated, readers are immortal
When you turn 80...
It is good to be conscious of nudities
Saturday slides in after Monday and Sunday somersaults into Friday
There's a one in a million and a one in ten
Gunadasa Kapuge is calling
Kumkum Fernando installs Sri Lanka in Coachella, California
Hemantha Gunawardena's signature
Pathways missed
Architectures of the demolished
The exotic lunacy of parting gifts
Who the heck do you think I am?
Those fascinating 'Chitra Katha'
The Mangala Sabhava
So how are things in Sri Lanka?
The most beautiful father
Palmam qui meruit ferat
The sweetest three-letter poem
Buddhangala Kamatahan
An Irish and Sri Lankan Hello
Teams, team-thinking, team-spirit and leadership
The songs we could sing in lifeboats when we are shipwrecked
Pure-Rathna, a class act
Jekhan Aruliah set a ball rolling in Jaffna
Awaiting arrivals unlike any other
Teachers and students sometimes reverse roles
Matters of honor and dignity
Yet another Mother's Day
A cockroach named 'Don't'
Colombo, Colombo, Colombo and so forth
The slowest road to Kumarigama, Ampara
Sweeping the clutter away
Some play music, others listen
Completing unfinished texts
Mind and hearts, loquacious and taciturn
I am at Jaga Food, where are you?
On separating the missing from the disappeared
Moments without tenses
And intangible republics will save the day (as they always have)
The world is made of waves
'Sentinelity'
The circuitous logic of Tony Muller
Rohana Kalyanaratne, an unforgettable 'Loku Aiya'
Mowgli, the Greatest Archaeologist
Figures and disfigurement, rocks and roses
Sujith Rathnayake and incarcerations imposed and embraced
Some stories are written on the covers themselves
A poetic enclave in the Republic of Literature
Landcapes of gone-time and going-time
The best insurance against the loud and repeated lie
So what if the best flutes will not go to the best flautists?
There's dust and words awaiting us at crossroads and crosswords
The books of disquiet
A song of terraced paddy fields
Of ants, bridges and possibilities
From A through Aardvark to Zyzzyva
World's End
Words, their potency, appropriation and abuse
Street corner stories
Who did not listen, who's not listening still?
The book of layering
If you remember Kobe, visit GOAT Mountain
The world is made for re-colouring
The gift and yoke of bastardy
The 'English Smile'
No 27, Dickman's Road, Colombo 5
Visual cartographers and cartography
Ithaca from a long ago and right now
Lessons written in invisible ink
The amazing quality of 'equal-kindness'
A tea-maker story seldom told
On academic activism
The interchangeability of light and darkness
Back to TRADITIONAL rice
Sisterhood: moments, just moments
Chess is my life and perhaps your too
Reflections on ownership and belonging
The integrity of Nadeesha Rajapaksha
Signatures in the seasons of love
To Maceo Martinet as he flies over rainbows
Sirith, like pirith, persist
Fragrances that will not be bottled
Colours and textures of living heritage
Countries of the past, present and future
A degree in creative excuses
Books launched and not-yet-launched
The sunrise as viewed from sacred mountains
The ways of the lotus
Isaiah 58: 12-16 and the true meaning of grace
The age of Frederick Algernon Trotteville
Live and tell the tale as you will
Between struggle and cooperation
Of love and other intangibles
Neruda, Sekara and literary dimensions
The universe of smallness
Paul Christopher's heart of many chambers
Calmness gracefully cascades in the Dumbara Hills
Serendipitous amber rules the world
Continents of the heart